Happy New Year Everyone!!!

I can't believe how fast this year has gone! It's so crazy! I just thought I would give anyone who is interested a little re-cap of what has happened in our lives in the past year. Our lives aren't that exciting, so it might be boring for you :) Well Shayne and I are still working at our same jobs. Shayne does insided sales/warehouse managing for an HVAC supply company called Air Cold Supply. He has been there for a few years, and likes it most days :) It's been a good job for him and for both of us. I'm glad he works so hard to support us. He is the best husband in the world and I love him so much! I am still working at Century 21 Golden Spike Realty's North Ogden office. I am the receptionist. It's a pretty easy, laid back job, and I like it too, most days :) We moved out of my grandpa's house and bought our own house in July. We absolutely love it and we are having so much fun making it the way we want it. We have plans to paint the outside of it this year. We really would like it to be another color than bright sky blue, or "JAZZ" blue for Kevin. We love the Jazz but not that much! :) So hopefully we will be able to do that. We would ultimately like to do siding, but it's much more expensive than paint. Still, though, if anyone knows someone who does a good job with siding, let us know. If it's a good enough deal, we would consider it. My grandfather moved in with my mom shortly after we moved out. He is doing ok, but it's good that he has someone with him all the time to take care of him. As most of you know, Shayne's mom was diagnosed with breast cancer this year. Just a quick update on that, she is done with chemo and doing well. She is finishing up her radiation, and her hair is growing back so well. I'm so excited because I am her hair dresser and I can't wait to be able to start doing it again! :) We are so blessed to have her in good health, and we keep praying the cancer will stay away! We love you Francine! Also, as most of you know, Shayne and I have been trying for a baby for quite a while now. No luck yet, but we are still trying. So I will make sure I let you know if we have any luck in that department. Well, we had a great Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and now almost New Years with our families and I hope you all did too. I love this time of year, but I'm ready for things to get back to normal and calm down, and to stop spending money!! I'm excited to see what the new year will bring (hopefully a baby!) and we wish you all a Happy New Year!

Quirks

Brandie tagged me, so I better do it! :)

* Tell about 6 unspectacular quirks of yours.
* Tag 6 fellow bloggers by linking them.

1. I can't read blue very well, especially on lit up signs at night. It just all blurrs together.

2. This is wierd, but I absolutely CAN NOT stand to rub my finger, or have anyone else do it, along my eyebrows in the opposite direction of the hair growth. I have no idea why, but my husband thinks it's hilarious so he tries do it to me every chance he gets. I FREAK out!

3. After I eat, I have to have the last taste in my mouth be something sweet.

4. I cry really easily.

5. I pass out if I give blood or plasma. Which is wierd, it never used to bother me, but I had a very bad experience once and now I want to throw up even thinking about doing it.

6. I feel like very few people know the real real me. Not that I'm fake, but it takes a while for me to feel like I'm being totally myself. I can probably count on 2 hands how many people I feel like REALLY know me.

*I tag who ever wants to do it! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA POLSON!!!

Today is my father-in-laws birthday! Happy birthday Max! Thank you for everything you do for our family. You really mean a lot to us, and we love you more than we can say! I hope you have a great birthday!

A Little Upset!

Ok, so I got my book in the mail about the diet for PCOS. I was so excited to get it after reading about it online. So, I started reading it this weekend and I was getting really excited about it. It sounded like something new and great and I was learning alot. The more I read though, the more the book started contradicting itself. Finally I was so confused, I got to the diet part. Like what I could eat and couldn't eat. Let me tell you, I am so mad! The whole time the book made it sound like you could still eat a wide range of foods and that it was meant to be on a budget. That it would just teach me a better way of eating. But NOOOOOO! It's what they call a "hunter-gatherer" diet. Which basically means, if I couldn't find it in the woods basically, or hunt it and kill it, I can't eat it! What the? Oh, and everything has to be 'organic'. I'm sorry, but I feel like organic stuff is a bunch of crap to rip people off. I mean, I know they don't use pestisides and all that, and if I could afford it, I might have a different opinion. But I'm not going to pay $3 more for that tiny head of 'non-pesticide' lettuce, when I can get this nice big one for half the price! I mean, seriously. People have been eating non-organic food for years and personally, I would rather not have bugs on my food, so I would rather it be sprayed. I wash it anyway, ya know? So that's not even it. I can't eat peanut butter, any type of carb that's not in something like an apple that I can't do anything about, no dairy! They say that milk is designed for baby cows and not humans and it has no health benefits! Are you kidding me? How about calcium for your bones, hair, nails, etc? Basically, the knowledge part is great, but I can find all that info online. I don't need to pay $40 for someone to tell me I need to eat like an organic flower child! I can cut back on my carbs, eat more fruits and veggies and exercise more all by myself, and not pay a fortune for it! Anyway, I guess I'm more dissappointed than anything. I was really hoping this would be the answer I was looking for. I was willing to work hard for it, but I'm not going to make myself unhappy by never eating ANYTHING! I was on a diet like that once. It worked, but I only lasted about 3 days. I cried every day because all I could eat was lettuce, tuna and chicken, oh and egg whites with no salt. Yum. I know that probably makes me sound like a baby, but I just can't handle only eating stuff like that. Let alone, afford all this organic food. I do much better when I just excersise, drink lots of water and just cut out most of the junk food. I'm much happier because I don't feel like a big fat failure if I eat a piece of cake once in a while, ya know? Oh well, hopefully I can get a refund. Luckily my sweet husband loves me just the way I am. He is so supportive. So we will both just have to be patient and stick to it while I get healthy the old fashioned way. I guess there is no easy answer. I'm still motivated though, and I'm still going to get healthier, so wish me luck!

HUBBY TAG...

1-where did you meet? We met at Acre's Market in North Ogden, we were both working there at the time.
2-how long did you date before you got married? about 9 months, but we knew eachother for a year.
3-how long have you been married? 3 years and 3 months
4-what is your favorite feature of his? I love how big and broad his chest is. It always makes me feel safe. And his cute face!
5-what is your favorite quality of his? He is always so easy going, sweet and laid back. He is good at helping me stay calm.
6-does he have a nickname for you? Babe
7-what is his favorite food? He loves Turkey Steaks and Macaroni and Cheese... Oh and pizza.
8-what is his favorite sport? We don't really watch sports, but we do like to watch Jazz games occasionally.
9-when and where was your first kiss? In his driveway after a date.
10-what is your favorite thing to do as a couple? Just be together. It doesn't matter what we are doing. We do love to go to our date place (Maddox Drive In) and get yummy food, and we love to go to Crystal Hot Springs at night when it's cold.
11-do you have kids? Not yet... we are trying really hard though! I promise!
12-does he have a hidden talent? He's an amazing cook, and he's handy with everything. Between him, his dad, his brothers, our brother-in-law, and my dad, we never have to hire anyone to fix anything. I swear they should start their own home building business. They all know how to do everything!!!
13-how old is he? 25 -I always tease him that he's old cuz he's half way to 50 :) Sorry babe!
14-who said " I love you" first? This is funny because we were talking about this the other day. Sadly, niether of us remember :(
15-what is his favorite type of music? Country, and 80's hair bands
16-what do you admire the most about him? His character, honesty, and loyalty. He has a really good heart, and I never have to worry about him hurting me.
17-do you think he will read this? Maybe, if he can figure out how to log in to our blog since I made it private. We are having technical difficulties. But I hope he does, I want him to know how much I love him. He is the best thing in my life, and I couldn't live without him!

My PCOS Journey...

*WARNING- THIS MAY BE A LITTLE GRAPHIC OR GROSS FOR SOME PEOPLE* Just in case anyone is interested, I thought I would share a little bit about my "condition" and our trying to get pregnant. This will probably be a long and boring post, but just in case anyone else that reads this is trying to conceive or maybe even has or knows someone with PCOS, this might be interesting to you. So for those of you who don't know, I have a condition called PCOS, which stand for Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. It's something you are born with. It means that I frequently get cysts on my ovaries, which is actually very common for many women, but you can have cysts without having PCOS. When you have PCOS, you typically have ovaries that are 3 to 5 times larger than normal ovaries. And in most cases, you have very irregular or no periods at all. In my case, I do not have periods AT ALL without the aid of medication. This also means that I do not ovulate without medication either. Which means, I can't get pregnant without it. Growing up, I started getting my period around age 12. I think they were pretty regular cycle wise, but very heavy, and I would occasionally have cramps that would almost make me faint. I would lay on the floor and cry until I fell asleep. I LITERALLY thought I was going to die. I wanted to have a hysterectomy at age 13 and just adopt children, because that's how bad the pain was. Well, thankfully I didn't :) But I did go to the doctor to see what was wrong. They didn't do an internal exam, because they thougt I was too young. Nor do I remember them doing any blood work. But they did do an ultra sound of my uterus and ovaries. They told me I had cysts and that they would go and come and occasionally they would rupture and I would feel them. Well that was it. From then up until I was about 17 or 18, I just dealt with the pain. The bad cramps gradually went away and I began having lighter and lighter cycles. And occasionally I would feel a cyst break and it would floor me but the pain would go away after a few minutes and I would just be tired. So I'm not even going to talk about my first pap because I went alone and it was just about the most horrible thing I have ever experienced. It hurt and the doctor was insensitive and I thought I was going to die. But the reason I went there was because I hadn't had a period in 9 months. Once again, no bloodwork or anything. He just put me on birth control and called it good. Well, the birth control helped make me regular and everything was good for a while. So then the time comes when I get married. Mind you I did have a few other pap tests before then and they were a much better experience, even though I still hate them, as I'm sure every woman does. Well I stayed on birth control for about the first 2 years of our marriage because we weren't ready for kids. Then, I just didn't refill it one day and we decided to just see what happens. So we weren't like trying, but not preventing. This went on for about 6 months or so and then I went in for a regular annual. Well it was fine, but my doctor(finally) wanted to know why I was so irregular. So she did blood tests. Turns out, I have PCOS. Now, many women who have it are either type 1 or type 2 diabetic or at least insulin resistant. Insulin resistant basically means that the body doesn't use insulin or glucose the way it's supposed to for energy, and therefore usually is stored as fat. Well at the time, I had recently lost about 17 pounds from a previous diet and my doctor said I was neither diabetic, or insulin resistant. I have been thin my entire life until about 20 years old, when I started gaining weight rapidly. I'm not like morbidly obese or anything, but I am about 35 pounds heavier than I was then and I would like to be healthier. I have also always had a problem with my blood sugar. Now, I am no doctor and I don't know if this is right, but this is the easiest way for me to describe it. If I get really hungry, especially at lunch time, and I don't eat right away, I feel as if my blood sugar plummits and I am about to faint. I get hot and shaky and dizzy. It's very wierd. My entire life, I have never known what causes it, so I have just made sure I eat asap when I start to feel it coming on. Oddly enough, the same thing would happen to me when I would feel a cyst on my ovary burst. I never realized they could be connected. Well my blood test was over a year ago now, and I have unfortunately gained back all the weight I had lost before my doctor's appt. So, now I'm wondering if I may be insulin resistant. I have done alot of research, and as far as I can tell, your weight and the things you eat have the BIGGEST impact on your PCOS sypmtoms. I feel like I have been trying all kinds of diets, and granted I could try harder and exercise more, but it just seems like nothing is working. I have always known that I need to cut back on my bad carbs, but until recently, I didn't realize how crucial this actually is. I recently found a book online and it is call "The Natural Diet Solution for PCOS and Infertility" Could there be anyting out there that applies to me more? NO! So I ordered it. I'm waiting for it to come in the mail. But I'm very excited because it has so much information about PCOS and what specific things to eat and not eat to completely counter act your symptoms and infertility with PCOS. I'm not like a total health nut by any means, but I'm not all about pumping my body full of meds to combat every little thing either. This book takes a more hollistic, comprehensive approach to battling PCOS. I know it will be difficult. It's a complete lifestyle, and life long change. Which means it takes life long effort. But it will be worth it to be healthier, in a healthy weight range, and have a child of our own. PCOS also highly increases the risk of heart attack, heart disease, and stroke in women, especially as they get older. I just know that if I don't do something now, I will eventually reach a point where it's too late. I can't stand the thougt of dying at an early age and leaving my husband and children early, just because of some disorder I could have reversed by a simple and healthy lifestyle change when I was young. I have been able to read small parts of the book on the website and peoples testimonials. I have learned more in the last 2 days than I have ever known about PCOS. I believe that knowledge is crucial if I want to make a difference with it. Now, just so you know, this is not some weight loss scheme that I am trying. This is a book written by a doctor, targeted at reversing severe and potentially dangerous symptoms of this condition called PCOS. There are no crazy diets, or medications. I just make sure that I'm choosing healthy foods and replacing unhealthy foods with them. I make sure I'm eating good carbs versus bad, and lots of fruits and vegetables. I will probably be taking a couple natural supplements such as fish oil, and L-Carnitine(amino acid) to aid in being healthy. I have done alot of research on these suppliments and have not found them be dangerous or unnatural in any way. I'm very excited about this. It's like the answer I have been looking for. I feel as if I have been stuck behind a wall, because of lack of knowledge of how to change my situation. I used to think I had no control over my condition. Turns out, I can do more to reverse it just by making healthy lifestyle changes than I can by taking medication for it. Now, I have been on the fertility drug clomid and provera, to help stimulate ovulation, so I will probably have to remain on them as long as my doctor instructs me to. But I am excited, mostly just to get healthier. Many of the women who have followed this diet have had their regular periods return (which means they are ovulating on their own), and have had many other side effects of PCOS subside, such as hirsutism(unwanted hair growth), acne, imbalanced blood sugar levels, high blood pressure, excess weigt, etc. I'm excited about this new journey in my life and I hope it will lead to a healthier me and eventually a baby :) I appreciate all the support of my friends and family. Please help me do this. Don't be offended if I don't take that piece of cake at the party or something. This is something that is long over due for me and that I can't postpone any longer. I NEED to be healthier. So, thanks for listening. Sorry if I sounded like a weight loss informercial or grossed anyone out.

Hey Everyone!

Not a whole lot to update about but just wanted to say hello. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! We did! It's nice because Shayne's family always eats early and mine eats late so we always get to see both families. I love it! We had lots of yummy food and fun with our families. Then we braved the crowd on Black Friday (like every year!) and got some great deals. We hit Wal-Mart first at 5am. It was pretty crazy but they let you in the store before hand and you just have to wait by the shrink wrapped pallots until 5am to get what you want. I like it better because you don't have to freeze your butt of standing outside in line and then also there is not a huge crowd pushing and shoving to get in the door so it's safer. Then we went to a few more places and the mall and then went to Moore's for breakfast just as the sun was coming up. It was SUCH good food and we were in and out in no time which surprised me. Then we went home and I put up the tree and decorations while my hubby napped and then we went back out for some more stuff! :) It was tons of fun! I love this time of year and I love Christmas shopping. I hope we can all have a great Christmas season and remember the true meaning of Christmas!